I'm Gonna Win!

"Dark is the night, I can weather the storm. Never say die, I've been down this road before. I'll never quit. I'll never lay down. See I promised myself that I'd never let me down." Just a few lines from Brian Mcknight's song "Win". I think this is my theme song at this moment. This is a long day for me. I've been very busy preparing for our prelim exams and stuff. Before I left the house, my mom was asking me of what time will I be going home. She knows that my class is just until 1:30 but since I told her that we have a meeting about our Departmental Christmas Party, she asked me of what time will I arrive home. She told me to wash my uniform if I will be home early cause she can't do it for me. They have to attend my cousin in law's internment this afternoon. I told her that I'll just wash my uniform when I got home. I wasn't really in the mood cause I was supposed to go with them but I can't because of my classes. My first class is supposed to be at 10:30 a.m. today but I came to school at pass 11 already... hah! I'm late! I plan not to attend my first class cause it's really late. I was heading at the 2nd. floor of our main building when I saw my classmates outside room 205 where we were supposed to have a class. I asked them why they were not entering the room and they told me that our professor wasn't around yet because of her meeting. They also said that maybe she will no longer attend our class because it's really late. Thank heavens for that! I won't be marked absent. I entered the room and sat beside my classmate who used to be my acquaintance in school. Then after a few moments, we had an argument about our Departmental Christmas Party. All third year students were assigned to organize that event because it's part of our exam in FoodProd but sad to say, only few people do the assigned responsibilities. Maybe that's the reason why he started to nag at me and my other classmate who's in the room (actually, it was just five of us in that room because my other classmates all went out). He said things that I can't take anymore that's why I got mad and walked out of our room. I'm patient but I was so fed up that time. I just can't contain the madness. Why does he keeps on nagging at me when he doesn't know what's really happening with my life? Sometimes, people really tends to be self centered. So the best way I thought I could do was to get out and leave him and let my madness went away. I didn't talk to him for a while but good thing everything was settled before the day ends. We went to the class of other students in our department and explained what will going to happen on the event. I was really tired and hungry and we still have our exam tommorrow so I still need to review... we still need to review but I can't go home and just leave my obligations behind. Also one of our professors told us that we still have a meeting so I stayed at school until 5:30 p.m. I just decided to go home when I felt that there'll be no meeting that will happen. I'm really pressured. I can feel it. I wasn't a born leader and I'm not even trained to be one. I used to be a follower when I was in gradeschool and highschool but eveything changed when I got to College. It's like people expects a lot from me that I can't even handle the pressure on my shoulders. I know I need to do all those things but I also need their help. If only they knew what I feel. I could just imagine how they were like when they were in my shoes. I need their cooperation. Not just two or three or four people. I hope they realize that. But as I told myself, I won't ever give up. I can do all of these. I believe I can and I know someone will help me from up there. I'll hold on to my faith. And as the song goes... "I'll never give up. I'll never give in. Never let a ray of doubt slip in. And if I fall, I'll never fail. I'll just get up and try again. I'll never lose hope, never lose faith. There's much, too much at stake. Upon myself I must depend. I'm not looking for place ashore. I'M GONNA WIN!"

When someone went away

It's December 8 and we don't have a class because of the Immaculate Concepcion. My eldest brother who's living in Manila texted my dad about the bad news. My cousin in law passed away because of diabetes and its complications. He was actually in the hospital that time cause he visited him but then he found out that he's already gone. It made me think that we don't really know what will happen to us the next day. As what I keep on saying before, we don't hold our life in our hands. We won't know when will it be taken away from us so we better cherish each moment we have on earth. I just hope that my cousin in law will be happy wherever he is right now. I know God will take care of him and he will feel no pain and sadness. He will already see our relatives in heaven and I know that he'll be watching us especially his family up from where he is. It really makes me sad whenever I heard of people leaving and won't be coming back again but anyway, that's life and those who are left behind will continue to live. That's what are we supposed to do... continue living cause I know that God will take the pain away and soon everything will be into place like before. It sad but we need to move on, cherish life and be good to one another. That's what life is for.

Something new

I have a new blog layout. Nakakatuwa kasi parang pambata yata 'tong layout ko ngayon, spongebob kasi. Pero cute naman s'ya di ba? And besides, bata pa rin naman ako... hehe! Every person has a kid inside them. Masarap kasing maging bata, walang masyadong worries sa buhay. Haay!... ang dami ko pa ring gagawin ngayon. May quiz pa kami sa technical writing bukas at my group project pa kami sa catering... waaa! Buti na nga lang at naisingit ko pa rin ang pag - aayos ng blog ko. Di ko na kasi talaga s'ya naaasikaso nung mga nakaraang araw. Maliban sa bagong layout ng blog na 'to eh! wala namang ibang bago sa'kin. Puno pa rin ang work load ko sa school. Pero o.k. lang, kaya ko 'to... aja!!! Kailangang mag - aral mabuti para maging mas maganda ang grades. 'Til my next post. ^_^

More than a month...

More than a month ko ring hindi na - update 'tong blog ko. Ang dami kasing academic activities... haay! So now, I try to have even just a short post. October 12 pa pala ang last post ko and it's November 27 already. Medyo natengga na 'tong blog ko dito. Buti na lang at bumibisita pa rin sina ate neym at mae kahit hindi pa ko nakakapag - update before (at sila lang ang nakalink dito sa blog ko... hehehe!) Ang boring pa kasi. Medyo hindi ko na nga s'ya naaasikaso dahil sa maraming gawain sa school. Kakapagod din maging estudyante pero masaya. And as what my sister in law said to me before, "Mamimiss mo rin ang pag - aaral 'pag nakagraduate ka na at may trabaho na". Actually, I love school... I'm weird right? 'Yung iba kasi, tinatamad mag -aral pero ako I enjoy schooling. Napansin ko ring mas masipag na kong mag - aral ngayon... I'm proud to say that!... haha! And speaking of school, I remember that I still need to do my assignment in Hum1 (Arts Appreciation). Sa Saturday pa naman ang pasahan nun pero mas maganda kung maaga akong makakatapos di ba? Kaya nga dapat short post muna ngayon. I'll just update my blog again some other time. Chow! ^_^

Major head ache

I haven't updated my blog for almost a month. I've been very busy lately with all the school works... research work, feasibility study, exams and a lot lot more. Now, I'm preparing for our presentation for our French Festival. It was a group presentation but I was assigned as the leader of our group so I have to take full responsibility for that. My brain is turning like wheels already and I'm having a lot of problems and worries in school. It's a major head ache for me... you know, it's a group project but then I was the only one who took effort to make it and finish it on time. I always come home late and when I came home, my parents have eaten their dinner already so I have to eat alone. I never stay in our house the whole day cause I still need to finish all those stuff. I'm always tired. A lot of people said that I'm losing weight. Maybe it's because I always sleep late and I wake up early to prepare for my exams and finish all the task I need to do. I love studying and going to school but I also need to take a rest. If only my group mates help me with our presentation then it will be a lot easier. But the worse part is, they didn't and even if I force them to help me, they still don't want. They still don't do their part. I'm also worried about one thing, I'm having issues in school which are not true. I don't know how to deal with it. Maybe I'll just try to ignore whatever those rude people say. Now, I'm really excited to have my sem break so I could have even just a little time to take a rest. I still have a week for this sem. I really hope time flies at this moment. Haaay! what a life. Maybe I should just accept the fact that this is how my life is going to be at the moment. That my world will revolve around my studies, my school. Anyway, I know that I'm a strong person and I could handle all these things all by myself. God will always be with me.

My Rainy Birthday

It's August 17 and it's already my birthday. I just turned 19 this day. It's a rainy day because of the super typhoon "Egay" pero nagcelebrate pa rin kami. I cooked spaghettie for them... the family's favorite. Actually, this is my only birthday na umuulan kaya medyo naninibago pa ko. My sisters can't come into our house because of the heavy rain so padadalhan na lang namin sila sa bahay nila ng food. My dad was telling me that I will be rich this year cause it's raining and I was laughing at that. I really wish that I'll be rich so I could buy all the things that I want... hahaha! Seriously, I just want to have a better year and I hope that though there's a typhoon, there'll be no people who will be hurt. Bonne anniversaire! Happy 19th. birthday to myself! ^_^

Tough week...

It's been 2 weeks after the prelim exams. That week is so exhausting... staying up late to review for the exams, commuting back and forth to school and in our house and all other stuff. At tama ba namang magkasakit ako sa last two days ng exam. S'yempre hindi ako umabsent but instead uminom na lang ng gamot... mas mahirap yatang kumuha ng special exam at may extrang bayad 'yun. Can you imagine kung ga'no kahirap mag - exam na masama ang pakiramdam mo? Siguro dahil na rin sa panahon kaya ako nagkasakit. Masyado kasing mainit sa GMA tapos hindi naman masyadong mainit sa'min. Medyo nastress out din ako dahil sa dami ng ginagawa. Haay! after ng exam namin hindi ko na talaga nakayanan so my mom asked me to just stay at home and rest for two days kasi talagang di na nagpapigil ang lagnat ko. Prelim exams is over but I'm still busy with all the written reports, research, assignments at kung anu -ano pa. Haay! kakapagod. Pero s'yenpre kahit ganito eh! I still enjoy going to school. Next week, we will be having our Toque's Fest. For two days 'yun, Monday and Tuesday so we don't have a class kasi puro activities lang meron on those days. Hanggang ngayon eh! hindi ko pa rin natatapos ayusin 'tong blog ko kaya boring pa rin s'ya. Siguro 'pag maluwag na talaga ang sked, pwede nang magbabad sa harap ng computer.