School it is!

Finally, our catering activity was over. Kahit nakakapagod, nagawa pa rin namin s'ya kahapon. Rest day naman ngayon. Vacation na nung mga walang summer class pero ako may klase pa rin... haay! Aral pa rin to the max. Ang hussle nga lang ng enrollment for summer class kasi nakailang balik ako just to finish it and not to mention nabadtrip pa ako kasi kulang 'yung perang dala kong pang - down nung mag - enroll ako last Thursday so I have to go back the next day. Ayun, kinabukasan habang nagsisimula nang magluto 'yung ibang classmates kong assign sa food sa foodlab eh! nagpaalam muna ko para ipagpatuloy ang enrollment. Buti na lang at nagawan ko ng paraan kung pa'no ako makakagawa sa foodlab and at the same time eh! nag - eenroll... talented! haha! Snick - snick na lang habang hindi masyadong busy sa foodlab. I already have a class on Monday. Straight na naman ang klase ko, Sunday lang ang pahinga... saya di ba? Pero o.k. lang 'yun para naman productive ang summer ko. Hopefully, sa next semester eh! magfit in 'yung schedule ng mga back subjects ko sa mga regular subjects para makasabay akong grumaduate sa mga classmates ko. Hirap talaga 'pag transferee ka and at the same time eh! shiftee... Kaya ko 'to! Aja!!!

I found this pic at Beth's friendster account. Kumusta naman ang itsura ko d'yan? Reyna ba ng mga dugyot ang porma? That was taken last March 15 during our Arts Appreciation class. That's before we perform our so - called "dance". Ang galing ko lang namang magkalat... haha! Buti na lang at tapos na 'yun. Hatest activity of all time ko na yata ang pagsayaw. Di ko na talaga gagawin 'yun ulit... haha!

Lagi na lang akong busy sa school. Nakasanayan ko na rin. Pinagduduty rin ako ni Ma'am Cathy sa Vox ngayong summer. Buti na lang at may long vacant hour ako in between subjects 'pag Thursday, Friday at Saturday. Makakapagduty talaga ko. Yehey! new staffer na talaga ako. At least ngayon hindi na labag sa'kin ang magduty or magspend ng time dahil gusto ko naman 'yung ginagawa ko.

School... school... school! It's always school. I love schooling kahit minsan eh! nakakatamad din at nakakaburaot. I'll surely miss this after I graduate. Pati 'yung mga classmates at mga katropa kong makukulit at s'yempre ang mga profs namin who serves as our parents in school. I learn to love them all though minsan eh! nakakainis sila. We only have a year left before we went out of the institution. I'm happy that in a few run left, we're going to reach the finish line. ^_^

Struggling to death!

Finally start na ng summer vacation. Haay! ang dami ko na namang struggles this sem and now eto bakasyon na. Teka! sa pagkakaalam ko eh! may summer class pa ko... hindi pala talaga 'ko magbabakasyon. I only have few weeks tapos pasok na ulit sa school... haay! ang saya talaga ng buhay ko. Walang pahinga. After I said a lot of stupid things about our dance practice eh! eto para pa rin akong praning. I ate up all I said at sumayaw pa rin ako nung Saturday sa Arts Appreciation class namin. Ang galing ko ngang magkalat eh! Well, I have no choice but to do it. Narealize ko kasi na ayokong magkaron ng incomplete na grade so kahit labag sa loob ko na gawin 'yun because of my two left feet and stiff body eh! ginawa ko pa rin but I swear, I'll never want to do that again... never! At matapos 'yun eh! nacorrupt pa ang mga files ko sa thumb drive ko dahil sa virus sa laptop ni Ma'am kaya ayun, ginawa ko ulit 'yung powerpoint presentation ko sa Teaching Strategy which was supposed to be passed on Tuesday. Tapos na sana ko kung hindi nacorrupt 'yung files ko. At dahil nga ginawa ko s'ya for just a day eh! mukha akong adik na racoon kinabukasan pagpasok ko sa school... kulang sa tulog at walang kain... hah! how lucky can I get? Buti na lang at naayos ko rin lahat and I was able to pass all my school work on time. Thank God for that. At kahit hindi masyadong maganda ang araw ko nun eh! may maganda pa ring nangyari sa'kin. I was accepted as a staffer sa Vox, 'yung school paper namin. I'm so happy. After ng maraming rejections na nangyari sa'kin nung high school sa pag - aapply ko sa school paper eh! finally natanggap na rin ako. Ngayon pwede na munang magpahinga ang utak at katawan ko even for just a week or two... yehey!!! After nito eh! pasok na ulit sa 26 para sa meeting sa catering namin then sa 28 sa actual catering day. Tapos enrollment na rin that week for summer class. Hectic na ulit ang sked. Sanay na rin ako. Ganito naman lagi ang buhay ko so I'm already used to it. Nag - eenjoy naman akong mag - aral kahit most of the time eh! nakakapraning ang buhay ko sa school. I'm sure mamimiss ko rin ang pag - aaral after I graduate kaya susulitin ko na habang nag - aaral pa ko. I'll just do my best para naman maging maganda ang grades ko lagi... Aja!!! ^_^

Just one of my hell days on my hell week...

Yesterday's my mom's birthday and I was supposed to be happy but it seems that the world don't allow me to be. My day's been ruined. How could you be happy if people don't even care to understand how you feel? That's pretty patethic. We had our exams in the morning and it was supposed to be at 7 am but our proctor didn't arrive. We waited so long for someone to go in our room to look for us while we are having our exams but it was already 8 am and still no one came and our exams haven't started yet. So che, marvin and me decided to go to the office and ask who will be our substitute proctor but it's as if they don't know who will take over... that's the start of everything. And so we waited 'till someone went to our room and give us our exams. It was already 9 when we started it. Before we started, our proctor asked us about our exam permit. We are not allowed to take our exams without the permit because it's already finals. So what happened? Ayun, 7 lang kaming nag - exam sa technical writing at 3 sa business policy. Hindi kasi sila inallowed ng proctor na mag - take ng exam dahil wala silang permit. After the exams, me and my groupmates decided to have our dance practice for the presentation on Saturday. That presentation will be our final exam in Humanities: Arts Appreciation. Nakapagpractice na naman kami nung nakaraan at may nabuo na rin kaming steps. Finally, nasusundan ko na rin s'ya after I suffer too much para lang makuha 'yung mga 'yun. Then later afternoon, my classmate told me and my other group mates that there will be someone who will teach us the dance. I supposed dadagdagan lang n'ya 'yung steps na nabuo na namin at pinractice ng ilang araw pero nagulat na lang ako when all of the steps were changed.... hah! What do you expect me to feel? After ng ilang araw naming pagparactice at ilang araw kong pag - iisip kung pano 'ko magpepresent sa Saturday, eto binago na lahat. I really feel bad that time. Sino ba namang hindi di ba? I know that they know that I'm bad in dancing. I don't want to do it and I will never do it for no reason. Kung hindi dahil sa grade 'yun then they can never asked me to do it. But it seems that they don't understand. I know it's not their fault that I was born with stiff body and two left feet. it's neither my fault. O.k. lang sana if the steps were easy to follow pero hindi. Well siguro for them it's easy pero para sa'kin? Baka sampung taon bago ko matutunan lahat 'yun. Sounds shallow pero if they will gonna ask me, I really want to quit. Kung hindi maha - hang 'yung grade ko kung magkuquit ako eh! di matagal ko nang ginawa 'cause I really don't want to do it. Kung music na lang sana 'yan eh! di hindi ko na 'yan poproblemahin. I'd sing happily in front of the class. Pero wala naman akong choice eh! 'Yun kasi ang sinabi sa'min. Now, I was thinking if I will attend our class on Saturday or I'll lock myself inside my room so no one will disturb me. Ayoko na talaga! Sila na lang sumayaw dun tutal gusto naman nila 'yun. I'm not mad at them and I shouldn't get mad at them dahil lahat naman kami gagawin 'yun. It's just that I can't force myself to do things that I don't want, that I can't. I know my capacity. Sarili ko 'to kaya alam ko kung ano ang kaya kong gawin at hindi. If only they understand that. I don't want to humiliate myself in front of the whole class and be tagged as "trying hard" or wait for the next day when the whole world will tell me that "you're such a jerk in the dance floor" or something like "She's the dancing bamboo, trying to make her way up"... damn! I feel like I'm in hell and I was doing a hell shitty thing and I'm making the whole presentation looks like hell that I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Oh! God help me with this. Don't wanna be on hell anymore. Last week and this week's like hell for me. I just want to take a break.